I had reached this point in my study
of the Bible, when one evening, just as I had seated
myself to begin work and was idly sharpening my pencil,
the door bell rang.
I had not seen my lover for weeks;
not since he had so sarcastically advised me to peruse
the Scriptures. I had waited for his coming, but
in vain; the mail brought no letter; he sent no word
by friend or foe. And I made no sign. His
had been the fault and his should be the reparation,
and so a profound silence fell like a pall between
us.
But love, the god of gods, strung
the invisible wires of mental telegraphy between our
hearts, and over the mystic, unseen lines our thoughts,
bright as hope, dark as sin, lighter than the thistle
down, heavily charged with the electricity of doubt
and trust, faith and fear, love and longing, flew
noiselessly back and forth through the stillness and
drew us unconsciously together; and so it happened
that he stood upon the doorstep and pulled the bell.
There was always a triumphant peal
to his ring that seemed to say to my heart, “Lo,
the conquering hero comes.” And now that
vital organ bounded gladly in my breast, then stood
still; my pulses throbbed with delight and triumph.
Ten minutes before I would have thrown the world away,
if it had been mine, for one smile from his lips, but
now I seized my pencil and wrote rapidly
on the tablet on my knee as he entered the hall, came
into the room, and stood beside me, then with a little
start I looked up and exclaimed in feigned surprise:
“You here?”
“I think I am,” he said,
“but if you want me to, I’ll look in the
mirror to make sure.” And then we both laughed,
for ’tis so easy to laugh when one is happy
and all the world is gay.
“Well,” said he, sitting
down beside me, clasping my hand in his as lovers
sometimes do, and taking up the conversation where
it had been dropped weeks and weeks before, “they
say you can buy a good cooking stove for forty dollars and
I’ve had my salary raised ten dollars a month.”
Then I smiled and he said abruptly:
“When are you going to marry me?”
“I haven’t completed my
study of the Bible yet, and I don’t think I
could be submissive, and ”
“Oh, fiddlesticks!” he
exclaimed, impolitely interrupting me, “I don’t
want you to be submissive; I just want you to love
me and and boss me,” he
added, in the very depth of repentance.
“But you demanded obedience,” I insisted.
“I was foolish then,”
he said softly, “but absence from you and silence
has taught me wisdom. When I left you and you
made no sign, sent no word of recall, left the dread
quiet unbroken, I told myself that you cared nothing
for me, and I tried desperately to fall in love with
some other girl, but they were all ‘flat, stale
and unprofitable’ compared to you. There
was no light in their eyes, no roses on their cheeks,
no pleasure in their presence, no rapture in their
touch and Oh, hang it! you know
I can’t talk, but I love you, and as long as
cooking stoves and marriage licenses are so cheap and
ministers are so plenty what’s the matter with
having a wedding to-morrow?”
And I said but never mind what I said.