Flossy went to the window and stood
looking out into the starless night. The pain
in her heart deepened with every moment.
“If there was only some one
to ask, some one to say a word to me,” she sighed
to herself. “It seems as though I could
never go to sleep with this feeling clinging to me.
I wonder what can be the matter? Perhaps I am
sick and am going to die. It feels almost like
that, and I am not fit to die I am afraid.
I wonder if Ruth Erskine is afraid to die? I have
almost a mind to ask her. I wonder if she ever
prays? People who are not afraid of death are
always those who pray. Perhaps she will to-night.
I feel as though I wanted to pray: I think if
I only knew how it would be just the thing to do.
If she kneels down I mean to go and kneel beside her.”
These were some of the thoughts that
whirled through her brain as she stood with her nose
pressed to the glass. But Ruth did not pray.
She went around with the composed air of one who was
at peace with all the world; and when her elaborate
preparations for rest were concluded she laid her
head on her pillow without one thought of prayer.
“Why in the name of sense don’t
you come to bed?” she presently asked, surveying
with curious glance the quiet little creature whose
face was hidden from her, and who was acting entirely
out of accordance with anything she had ever seen
in her before. “What can you possibly find
to keep you gazing out of that window? It can’t
be called star-gazing, for to my certain knowledge
there isn’t a single star visible; in fact, I
should say nothing could be visible but the darkness.”
For a minute Flossy made no answer.
She did not move nor turn her head; but presently
she said, in a low and gentle voice:
“Ruth, should you be afraid to die?”
“To die!” said Ruth; and
I have no means of telling you what an astonished
face and voice she had. “Flossy Shipley,
what do you mean?”
“Why, I mean that,”
said Flossy, in the same quiet tone. “Of
course we have got to die, and everybody knows it;
and what I say is, should you be afraid if it were
to-night, you know?”
“Humph!” said Ruth, turning
her pillow and waiting to beat it into shape before
she spoke further. “I haven’t the
least idea of dying to-night.”
“But how can you be sure
of that? You might have to die to-night,
you know people do sometimes.”
“I know one thing, am perfectly
certain of it, and that is, that you will take cold
standing there and making yourself dismal. You
are shivering like a leaf, I can see you from here.
If that is all the good to be gotten from the ‘religious
impressions’ that they harp about being so great
here, the less religion they have the better, and there
is quite little enough you may be sure.”
Saying which, Ruth turned her pillow again and her
head, so that she could not see the small creature
at the window. She was unaccountably rasped, not
to say startled, by her question, and she did not
like to be startled; she liked to have her current
of life run smoothly.
As for Flossy, she gave a great sigh
of disappointment and unrest, and turned slowly from
the window. She had vaguely hoped for help of
some sort from Ruth, and as she lay down on her prayerless
pillow she said to herself, “If she had only
knelt down I should certainly have done so, too; and
perhaps I might have been helped out of this dreadful
feeling.” Yet so ignorant was she of the
way that it never once occurred to her to kneel alone
and pray.
No more words were spoken by those
two girls that night, but each lay awake for a long
time and tossed about restlessly. Ruth had been
most effectually disturbed, and try as best she could
it was impossible to banish the memory of those quiet
words: “You might have to die to-night;
people do, you know.” To actually have
to do something that she had not planned to do and
was not quite ready for, would be a new experience
to this girl. Yet when would she be ready to plan
for dying? At last she grew thoroughly vexed,
and vented her disgust on the “religionists”
who got up camp-meeting excitements for the purpose
of turning weak brains like Flossy Shipley’s.
After that she went to sleep.
“Flossy Shipley, for pity’s
sake don’t rig your self up in that awful
cashmere! It rains yet and you will just be going
around with five wrinkles on your forehead all day,
besides spoiling your dress.”
It was morning, and the door of communication
between the two sleeping-rooms being thrown open the
four girls were in full tide of talk and preparation
for Fairpoint. Flossy, though kept her strangely
quiet face and manner; the night had not brought her
peace; she had tossed restlessly for hours, and when
at last she slept it was only to be haunted with troubled
dreams. With the first breath of morning she
opened her eyes and felt that the weight of yesterday
was still pressing on her heart.
“What shall I wear?”
she asked, in an absent, bewildered way of Eurie,
who had objected to the cashmere.
“I’m sure I don’t
know. Didn’t you bring anything suited to
the rain? Let me go fishing in that ponderous
trunk and see if I can’t find something.”
The “fishing” produced
nothing more suitable than a heavy black silk, elaborately
trimmed, and looking, as Eurie phrased it, “elegantly
out of place.”
Through much confusion and frolicking
the four were at last entering the grounds at Chautauqua.
By reason of their superior knowledge Marion and Flossy
led the way, while the others followed eagerly, looking
and exclaiming.
“I’ll tell you what it
is, girls,” Eurie said, eagerly. “Let’s
come over here and board. We’ll have a
tent or a cottage. A tent will be jollier, and
it will be twice as much fun as to stay at the hotel.”
There being no dissenting voice to
this proposal, they started in much glee to look up
a home; only Flossy demurred timidly.
“Can’t we go to the meeting,
girls, and look for the tent afterward? The meeting
has commenced; I hear them singing.”
“It’s nothing in the world
but a Bible service,” Eurie said. “That
man at the gate handed me a programme. Who wants
to go to a Bible service? We have Bibles enough
at home. We want to be on hand at eleven o’clock,
because Edward Eggleston is to speak on ‘The
Paradise of Childhood.’ My childhood was
anything but paradise, but I am anxious to know what
he will make of it.”
Flossy succumbed, of course, as every
one expected she would; and the party went in search
of tents and accommodations. It was no easy matter
to suit them, as the patient and courteous President
found.
“I don’t like the location
of any one of them,” Ruth Erskine said.
Of course she was the hardest to suit. “Why
can’t we have one of those in that row on the
hill?”
“Those are the guest tents, ma’am.”
“The guest tents?” Eurie
exclaimed, in surprise. “I wonder if they
entertain guests here! Who are they?”
“Why, those who have been invited
to take part in the exercises, of course. You
did not suppose that they paid their own expenses and
did the work besides, did you?”
This explanation was given by Marion,
who, by virtue of her experience as reporter was better
versed in the ways of these great gatherings than
the others.
“What an idea!” Eurie
said. “Fancy being a guest and speaking
at this great meeting. Being a person of distinction,
you know; so that people would be pointing you out,
and telling their neighbors who you were.
“There goes Miss Mitchell.
She is the leading speaker on Sunday-school books.
How does that sound? Only, on the whole, I should
choose some other department than Sunday-school books;
they are all so horridly good the people
in them, I mean that one can’t get
through with more than two in a season. I tried
to read one last week for Sunday, but I abandoned
it in despair.”
This was an aside, while Ruth was
questioning the President. She was looking dismayed.
“Can’t we have one of
the tents on that side near the stand?”
“Those were taken months ago.
This is a large gathering, you know.”
“I should think it was!
Then, it seems, we must go back to the hotel.
I thought you would be glad to let us have accommodations
at any price.”
The gentlemanly President here carefully
repressed an amused smile. Here were people who
had evidently misunderstood Chautauqua.
“Oh, yes,” he said, “we
can give you accommodations, only not the very best,
I am sorry to say. Our best tents were secured
many months ago. Still, we will do the best we
can for you, and I think we can make you entirely
comfortable.”
“People have different ideas
as to the meaning of that word,” Miss Eurie
said, loftily.
Then she moved to another tent, over
which she exclaimed in dismay:
“Why, the bed isn’t made
up! Pray, are we to sleep on the slats?”
“Oh, no. But you have to
hire all those things, you know. Have you seen
our bulletin? There are parties on the ground
prepared to fit up everything that you need, and to
do it very reasonably. Of course we can not know
what degree of expense those requiring tents care to
incur, so we leave that matter for them to decide
for themselves. You can have as many or as few
comforts as you choose, and pay accordingly.”
“And are all four of us expected
to occupy this one room?” There was an expression
of decided disgust on Miss Erskine’s face.
“Way, you see,” explained
the amused President, “this tent is designed
for four; two good-sized bedsteads set up in it; and
the necessity seems to be upon us to crowd as much
as we can conveniently. There will be no danger
of impure air, you know, for you have all out-doors
to breathe.”
“And you really don’t
have toilet stands or toilet accommodations! What
a way to live!”
Another voice chimed in now, which
was the very embodiment of refined horror.
“And you don’t have pianos
nor sofas, and the room isn’t lighted with gas!
I’m sure I don’t see how we can live!
It is not what we have been accustomed to.”
This was Marion, with the most dancing
eyes in the world, and the President completed the
scene by laughing outright. Suddenly Ruth discovered
that she was acting the part of a simpleton, and with
flushed face she turned from them, and walked to a
vacant seat, in the opposite direction from where
they were standing.
“We will take this one,”
she said, haughtily, without vouchsafing it a look.
“I presume it is as good as any of them, and,
since we are fairly into this absurd scrape we must
make the best of it.”
“Or the worst of it,”
Marion said, still laughing. “You are bent
on doing that, I think, Ruthie.”
By a violent effort and rare good
sense Ruth controlled herself sufficiently to laugh,
and the embarrassment vanished. There were splendid
points about this girl’s character, not the least
among them being the ability to laugh at a joke that
had been turned toward herself. At least the
effect was splendid. The reasons, therefore, might
have been better. It was because her sharp brain
saw the better effect that her ability to do this
thing immediately produced on the people around her.
But I shall have to confess that a poise of character
strong enough to gracefully avert unpleasant effects
arising from causes of her own making ought to have
been strong enough to have suppressed the causes.
The question of an abiding-place being
thus summarily disposed of, the party set themselves
to work with great energy to get settled, Marion and
Eurie taking the lead. Both were used to both
planning and working, and Marion at least had so much
of it to do as to have lost all desire to lead unnecessarily,
and therefore everything grew harmonious.
There was a good deal of genuine disgust
in Ruth’s part of it, though, her eyes having
been opened, she bravely tried to hide the feeling
from the rest. But you will remember that she
had lived and breathed in an atmosphere of elegant
refinement all her life, accepting the luxuries of
life as common necessities until they had really become
such to her, and the idea of doing without many things
that people during camp life necessarily find themselves
obliged to do without was not only strange
to her but exceedingly disagreeable. The two leaders
being less used to the extremes of luxury, and more
indifferent to them by nature, could not understand
and had little sympathy with her feeling.
“We shall have to go back after
all to the hotel,” Eurie said, as she dived
both hands into the straw tick and tried to level the
bed. “We have too fine a lady among us;
she cannot sleep on a bedstead that doesn’t
rest its aristocratic legs on a velvet carpet.
She doesn’t see the fun at all. I thought
Flossy would be the silly one, but Flossy is in a
fit of the dumps. I never saw her so indifferent
to her dress before. See her now, bringing that
three-legged stand, without regard to rain! There
is one comfort in this perpetual rain, we shall have
less dust. After all, though, I don’t know
as that is any improvement, so long as it goes and
makes itself up into mud. Look at the mud on my
dress! That tent we were looking at first would
have been ever so much the best, but after Ruth’s
silliness I really hadn’t the face to suggest
a change I thought we had given trouble
enough. She makes a mistake; she thinks this
is a great hotel, where people are bound to get all
the money they can and give as little return, instead
of its being a place where people are striving to
be as accommodating as they can, and give everybody
as good a time as possible.”
In the midst of all this talk and
work they left and ran up the hill to the Tabernacle,
where the crowds were gathering to hear Dr. Eggleston.
It was a novel sight to these four girls; the great
army of eager, strong, expectant faces; the ladies,
almost without an exception, dressed to match the
rain and the woods, looking neither tired nor annoyed
about anything looking only in earnest.
To Ruth, especially, it came like a revelation.
She looked around her with surprised eyes. There
were intellectual faces on every hand. There was
the hum of conversation all about her, for the meeting
was not yet opened, and the tone of their words was
different from any with which her life had been familiar;
they seemed lifted up, enthused; they seemed to have
found something worthy of enthusiasm. As a rule
Ruth had not enjoyed enthusiastic people; they had
seemed silly to her; and you will admit that there
is a silly side to the consuming of a great deal of
that trait on the dress for an evening party, or the
arrangement of programmes for a fancy concert.
Just now she had a glimmering fancy that there might
be something worthy of arresting and holding one’s
eager attention.
“They look alive,” she
said, turning from right to left among the rows and
rows of faces. “They look as though they
had a good deal to do, and they thought it was worth
doing.”
Then, curiously enough, there came
suddenly to her mind that question which she had banished
the night before, and she wondered if these people
had all really answered it to their satisfaction.
Flossy took a seat immediately in
front of the speaker. She was hungry for something,
and she did not know what to call it something
that would set her fevered heart at rest. As
for Marion and Eurie, they hoped with all their hearts
that the “Hoosier Schoolmaster” would give
them a rich intellectual treat, at least Marion was
after the intellectual. Eurie would be contented
if she got the fun, and a man like Dr. Eggleston has
enough of both those elements to make sure of satisfying
their hopes. But would he bring something to help
Flossy?