It was a curiosity which Fulkerson
himself shared, at least concerning Dryfoos.
“I don’t know what the old man’s
going to do,” he said to March the day after
the Marches had talked their future over. “Said
anything to you yet?”
“No, not a word.”
“You’re anxious, I suppose,
same as I am. Fact is,” said Fulkerson,
blushing a little, “I can’t ask to have
a day named till I know where I am in connection with
the old man. I can’t tell whether I’ve
got to look out for something else or somebody else.
Of course, it’s full soon yet.”
“Yes,” March said, “much
sooner than it seems to us. We’re so anxious
about the future that we don’t remember how very
recent the past is.”
“That’s something so.
The old man’s hardly had time yet to pull himself
together. Well, I’m glad you feel that way
about it, March. I guess it’s more of a
blow to him than we realize. He was a good deal
bound up in Coonrod, though he didn’t always
use him very well. Well, I reckon it’s
apt to happen so oftentimes; curious how cruel love
can be. Heigh? We’re an awful mixture,
March!”
“Yes, that’s the marvel and the curse,
as Browning says.”
“Why, that poor boy himself,”
pursued Fulkerson, had streaks of the mule in him
that could give odds to Beaton, and he must have tried
the old man by the way he would give in to his will
and hold out against his judgment. I don’t
believe he ever budged a hairs-breadth from his original
position about wanting to be a preacher and not wanting
to be a business man. Well, of course! I
don’t think business is all in all; but it must
have made the old man mad to find that without saying
anything, or doing anything to show it, and after
seeming to come over to his ground, and really coming,
practically, Coonrod was just exactly where he first
planted himself, every time.”
“Yes, people that have convictions
are difficult. Fortunately, they’re rare.”
“Do you think so? It seems
to me that everybody’s got convictions.
Beaton himself, who hasn’t a principle to throw
at a dog, has got convictions the size of a barn.
They ain’t always the same ones, I know, but
they’re always to the same effect, as far as
Beaton’s being Number One is concerned.
The old man’s got convictions or did have, unless
this thing lately has shaken him all up and
he believes that money will do everything. Colonel
Woodburn’s got convictions that he wouldn’t
part with for untold millions. Why, March, you
got convictions yourself!”
“Have I?” said March. “I don’t
know what they are.”
“Well, neither do I; but I know
you were ready to kick the trough over for them when
the old man wanted us to bounce Lindau that time.”
“Oh yes,” said March;
he remembered the fact; but he was still uncertain
just what the convictions were that he had been so
stanch for.
“I suppose we could have got
along without you,” Fulkerson mused aloud.
“It’s astonishing how you always can get
along in this world without the man that is simply
indispensable. Makes a fellow realize that he
could take a day off now and then without deranging
the solar system a great deal. Now here’s
Coonrod or, rather, he isn’t.
But that boy managed his part of the schooner so well
that I used to tremble when I thought of his getting
the better of the old man and going into a convent
or something of that kind; and now here he is, snuffed
out in half a second, and I don’t believe but
what we shall be sailing along just as chipper as usual
inside of thirty days. I reckon it will bring
the old man to the point when I come to talk with
him about who’s to be put in Coonrod’s
place. I don’t like very well to start
the subject with him; but it’s got to be done
some time.”
“Yes,” March admitted.
“It’s terrible to think how unnecessary
even the best and wisest of us is to the purposes
of Providence. When I looked at that poor young
fellow’s face sometimes so gentle
and true and pure I used to think the world
was appreciably richer for his being in it. But
are we appreciably poorer for his being out of it now?”
“No, I don’t reckon we
are,” said Fulkerson. “And what a
lot of the raw material of all kinds the Almighty
must have, to waste us the way He seems to do.
Think of throwing away a precious creature like Coonrod
Dryfoos on one chance in a thousand of getting that
old fool of a Lindau out of the way of being clubbed!
For I suppose that was what Coonrod was up to.
Say! Have you been round to see Lindau to-day?”
Something in the tone or the manner
of Fulkerson startled March. “No! I
haven’t seen him since yesterday.”
“Well, I don’t know,”
said Fulkerson. “I guess I saw him a little
while after you did, and that young doctor there seemed
to feel kind of worried about him.
“Or not worried, exactly; they
can’t afford to let such things worry them,
I suppose; but ”
“He’s worse?” asked March.
“Oh, he didn’t say so. But I just
wondered if you’d seen him to-day.”
“I think I’ll go now,”
said March, with a pang at heart. He had gone
every day to see Lindau, but this day he had thought
he would not go, and that was why his heart smote
him. He knew that if he were in Lindau’s
place Lindau would never have left his side if he could
have helped it. March tried to believe that the
case was the same, as it stood now; it seemed to him
that he was always going to or from the hospital; he
said to himself that it must do Lindau harm to be
visited so much. But he knew that this was not
true when he was met at the door of the ward where
Lindau lay by the young doctor, who had come to feel
a personal interest in March’s interest in Lindau.
He smiled without gayety, and said, “He’s
just going.”
“What! Discharged?”
“Oh no. He has been failing
very fast since you saw him yesterday, and now ”
They had been walking softly and talking softly down
the aisle between the long rows of beds. “Would
you care to see him?”
The doctor made a slight gesture toward
the white canvas screen which in such places forms
the death-chamber of the poor and friendless.
“Come round this way he won’t
know you! I’ve got rather fond of the poor
old fellow. He wouldn’t have a clergyman sort
of agnostic, isn’t he? A good many of these
Germans are but the young lady who’s
been coming to see him ”
They both stopped. Lindau’s
grand, patriarchal head, foreshortened to their view,
lay white upon the pillow, and his broad, white beard
flowed upon the sheet, which heaved with those long
last breaths. Beside his bed Margaret Vance was
kneeling; her veil was thrown back, and her face was
lifted; she held clasped between her hands the hand
of the dying man; she moved her lips inaudibly.